Contentious

My current feeling:
Contentious.

My current thoughts are:
I feel like I want to push boundaries today. I want to argue points of order. I want to be a bit edgy and not a push over or submissive. I’m wearing a jumper that I cut the V neck deeper so it would show off my bras and boobs a bit, to be a little sexier and feel good about my body. Naturally, C hasn’t even registered. I’m not going anywhere or seeing anyone today so it’s not like I’m going be embarrass anyone. Don’t care! C’s just read something in The Ringing World and isn’t happy about it and basically accused me and my colleagues of not picking up on it. I said it was something that clearly all of us should have picked up, but suspect only 3 out of the 8 of us even bothered to read anyway, and that it was not down to one person to fix all the time. He makes me feel like it’s all my fault every time something like this happens. I told him he should write to the whole Exec and chastise all of us, not just me. I suspect others will already be writing to the Editor full of exasperation.

My physical state is:
Amazing.

My physical state is a result of:
Really hitting the kettlebell workout hard last night, and being consistent with eating on plan. I did every move, every rep, blow for blow with Joe. The only change I made was right at the end swapping the last set of burpees out for stair pushups. I’d done the first set of burpees, full on, chest to floor, jumping in and out. Got on the scales this morning and lost 2bs since yesterday. Now, again, the lowest I’ve been since mid 2018! Seeing those numbers come down is such a boost. Don’t want to wreck it in the last week of this cycle.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1)  Pomodoro technique to admin activities.
2)  30 mins of walking, either outside or on my stepper.
3)  Final workout of the week.

My desired emotion for today is:
Unapologetic.

I am a woman who:
is her authentic self.

Today I will let go of:
submission.

Today I choose to add:
determination.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
Loving this cycle of workouts and really starting to see the difference. Getting back into the SOSI way of things and learning and relearning how to be the real me.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
I can feel and see myself getting stronger, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’m giving the workouts my all, pushing myself to do the hard moves. Revisiting some old SOSI classes to remind myself who I want to be, and learning from new ones how to manifest that has been reinvigorating too!

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Make sure I don’t undo all the good work of this week over the weekend when food and exercise will be challenged, and emotions triggered.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Enjoy a day of calm productivity.