Indifferent

My current feeling:
Indifferent.

My current thoughts are:
To the whole idea of Christmas. I have gifts that still need buying, then wrapping. A birthday cake for dad for next weeked to make and the family gathering. The best bit about it all is spending some time with R. She’ll be here fleetingly for Dad’s birthday, then we go down to hers for Christmas Eve til the day after Boxing Day. I have nothing for C, as he requested, and I hope he’s got nothing for me, as I requested, so that makes it all a nonesense. We’ve not put a tree up, or made any effort really around the house, other than a string of lights in the lounge window. All a bit grinchy and ba humbug really, no excitement. Got 3 lots of Carol Services to ring for, plus 2 extra learners practices thrown in, so all very functional. He doesn’t want to do anything, so I’m not supposed to either. I know I could arrange to go out with friends, but he really does suck the fun out of things.

My physical state is:
Still a bit sore.

My physical state is a result of:
Only did my 10 minute abs challenge yesterday, failed at one quarter peal attempt, and scored the other, so nearly 2hrs of ringing, but other than that didn’t really do much else. We don’t need to be anywhere later this afternoon, so I might do a full workout and my abs challenge then.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Wrapping what gifts are really to be done.
2) Food prepping for the week ahead.
3) Full workout and abs challenge.

My desired emotion for today is:
Festive.

I am a woman who:
is looking for ideas.

Today I will let go of:
complaining.

Today I choose to add:
Enjoyment.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
The quarter we scored was not the first in the method for me.

The thoughts that support my celebrations
I thought the quarter we scored yesterday was my first in that method, but it turns out I’d rung it before in 2019. I had no recollection at all. Learning or relearning methods is not as scary as it used to be. I think it’s because I did a lot of work during Covid, when we were using Ringing Room, to build things up properly and start to unpick method construction more, so it’s less daunting.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Last full week to really focus on losing those stubborn last 2lbs before Christmas.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Last 4 days at work before 17 days off. Make them count.