Relieved

My current feeling:
Relieved.

My current thoughts are:
The family gathering went off without too much drama. As predicted mum spent most of her time talking to my brother’s step kids instead of her own granddaughter. I think she asked R one question and that was it all day. Likewise, she didn’t speak with me much either. There were too many people there really. Didn’t get to speak to some of them at all. Then the farce of sorting the food bill out.  I ended up paying the whole thing and have to be reimbursed by the others, but working out what everyone had, including extra drinks and puddings was problematic. Then we split Mum and Dads between us, then the service charge. J sent a few quid extra, C sent forty quid short, and T sent double what she needed to so now I have to faff paying her back the difference. Then there was the present swap. Mum has spent more time and effort in loads of gifts for my brother’s, adult step daughters, than for her own granddaughter. When was the last time she did anything for my stepdaughters? Harps back to childhood favouritism again. My brother invited us to visit them for a day next year, but I really don’t have anything in common with him and would struggle to fill a day with conversation. I know C would hate it. Well, it’s done now for another 5 months, til the May gathering.

My physical state is:
A bit stiff across the shoulders.

My physical state is a result of:
I did my 10 minute abs challenge later in the evening after food had had time to settle down. I didn’t think doing lots of crunches would be a good idea, so opted for a plank session. Two rounds of side planks, elbow and high planks, and a hollow hold. Shoulders felt fine during it, but a bit sore this morning.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Stick to food plan today.
2) Time for a full proper workout this afternoon.
3) Taking flowers to C’s parents grave in Suffolk.

My desired emotion for today is:
Relaxed.

I am a woman who:
can now relax into holiday mode.

Today I will let go of:
Family stresses.

Today I choose to add:
Flow.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
Dad enjoyed himself.

The thoughts that support my celebrations
Dad had a good birthday, and that’s the main thing. Its never a surprise, as we do it every year, but he likes having us all together, even if he can’t hear half of whats going on. He was very grateful to everyone.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
I want to focus on the next few days when we’re with R. We’ll have some cracking conversations, and a laugh. We’ll get to really find out what’s been going on in her life and if she gets her Master’s results.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
The gathering is done for this year. The next one will be focused on my brother’s 60th birthday in May.