Imposter

My current feeling:
Imposter.

My current thoughts are:
Today I have to give a presentation to my boss’s boss and his senior leadership team. I know them all, and have worked with each of them to develop this presentation. I’ve run it past my boss and her counterpart, the person who commissioned the piece of work, and he was very enthusiastic about it, and happy with what I’d produced. Yet, somehow I still feel a bit of Imposter Phenomenon, as I’ll be the lowest banded, and least senior person in the room, telling all of them that what they currently have in place is inconsistent, unworkable and unaccountable. It’ll not be a surprise to them I’m sure, but seeing it starkly and in visual form will hopefully help them come up with a different solution that releaves some of the pressure, but provides consistent accountability and due diligence around governance. I’m not sure it I’m supposed to just do my presentation then leave, or stay as part of their discussion.

My physical state is:
Sneezy.

My physical state is a result of:
Definitely sneezy and headachy again. I did manage a 25min AMRAP last night, what I thought was the lesser of the two evils on paper, but it was still tough, and I couldn’t manage the last set of burpees.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Lunchtime walk and podcast.
2) Workout of some sort.
3) Deliver presentation and, hopefully be part of the discussion afterwards.

My desired emotion for today is:
Success.

I am a woman who:
knows what she has to deliver.

Today I will let go of:
worry.

Today I choose to add:
confidence.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today.
Passed modules 4 and 5 with 100%.

The thoughts that support my celebrations
Modules 4 and 5 completed and passed with 100% each. Now on to Module 6 of 14. They’re short modules with just a few questions at the end, so not actually that hard. I wonder just how much of the information I can actually retain longer term.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Away for the weekend. Need to pack. Don’t forget C’s anniversary card.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from your future:
Won the staff lottery yesterday. £2,844 better off. Money in my bank already.