Concerned

My 30 Day Goal is:
Declutter my corner of the lounge and swap winter/summer wardrobes.

Current Thought:
C messaged me yesterday whilst I was at work to tell me he’s got to go for a scan tomorrow afternoon. A blood test result had made the GP do an urgent referral. He didn’t tell me any more than that and didn’t respond to my questions. Over dinner last night I asked more detailed questions. Apparently a blood test for prostate screening was a “bit high”, so they’re getting him scanned to investigate any potential cancer concerns. His idea of a “bit high” is the count was at 15 when, for someone his age, should be around 4.5, and they don’t arrange a scan that quickly unless they’re concerned. He knew about the need for a scan last week, and only told me yesterday. He probably only told me then because it’s on a Friday, meaning I’m at home. If it was any other day he’d probably not even told me then. That hurts.

Current Emotion
Concerned.

Todays Standard:
I am a woman who:
Will try not to make a big deal of it.

Todays Sweet Spot:
I think:
I will carry on as normal, take my cue from him but offer to take him for his scan.

I feel:
Sad that he only told me yesterday, and possibly only then because it’s on a Friday.

I do:
1) (body) lunchtime walk and podcast and workout this evening.
2) (mind) focus on work and other things I need to do today.
3) (soul) prepare for a long weekend.

Future Self Pep Talk:
Not making a drama out of things has meant you’ve been level headed in times of crises. Others noticed this and rely on you to keep calm. Whatever feelings you’ve had you’ve kept control of, so others feel calmer about it.

Celebrations/Gratitudes:
Smashed last month’s 30 day goal. Drank at least 2L of water every day except about 3. Smashed last nights workout with Peak heart rate for 12 minutes, longest ever.