Masterful

My 30 Day Goal is:
Save at least £500.

Current Thought:
I think I’ve mastered the art of not giving a thought to how l feel around certain people anymore, or even how I feel about C being around certain people. Throughout this whole ringing holiday I’ve not felt any hostility toward his ex wife or any jealousy around her being here and interacting with C. I’ve left them in the ringing room together, I’ve even spoken to her several times without any snarkiness. I’ve been more me this time than I have been in her company for a long while. I’ve had some good laughs with others, and really enjoyed chatting with people. Some of it may have been alcohol fuelled at times, but even so. I’ve not even been bothered what C thinks either. I’ve ignored him as much as he’s ignored me.

Current Emotion
Masterful.

Todays Standard:
I am a woman who:
masters her own mind and cultivates interesting conversations, opportunities for connection and is unapologetically herself.

Todays Sweet Spot:
I think:
final day of ringing before we have our own holiday. One more lunch I’ve organised to get through successfully, then I can sit back.

I feel:
Quite at peace with how I’ve managed my mind, and how, sometimes, things that would have previously triggered or bothered me, haven’t even entered my head to require managing.

I do:
1) (body) rest day from workouts. Lots of ringing though.
2) (mind) final day of certain people’s company then free.
3) (soul) no pressure, no hassle.

Future Self Pep Talk:
Clarity comes from questioning, not just accepting.

Celebrations/Gratitudes:
Check in stats and photos were amazing. Lost 6lbs and some cms. Won’t really be able to start the new workouts until next week when we get back home. Made really good food choices yesterday. Soup at lunchtime and chicken salad in the evening.