Unimpressed

My 30 Day Goal is:
Lose at least 8lbs.

Current Thought:
Yesterday I wasn’t so good at managing my mind. I was still reeling a bit about the twin bed situation, which was surprising given C doesn’t exactly give me much by way of physical connection, but I suppose every little I do get is better than nothing. I had a rubbish nights sleep. The fire alarm went off in the lotel, fortunately just as we were about to leave anyway. Someones hairdryer was throwing out smoke. It was all sorted in a few minutes everyone was ok, I’d got everyone accounted for as far as I could tell and, the fire brigade were there in a matter of minutes, I gave them the update then left them to it. Ringing was ok, but then we had time to kill before lunch. Lunch was for 8, including C’s ex and Mark. Little E was playing up and Big E was stressing. I was getting fed up by now. We still had to go help move a bed. When we get back to E&Ms, C, M, E, C’s ex and Mark all got involved in moving this bed. Nothing had been prepared,  areas had to be cleared up, the drawers had to be emptied and it took all of them to move this thing up into the loft space. I tried to keep Little E out of their way, but she kept wandering off. I figured they didn’t need any more bodies getting in the way, so I went and sat in the garden. I tried to take C his tea but he barked at me, so I walked off. Now I was getting really pissed off and time was moving on, we still had to get home, and I still had food prep to do. I was also pissed that it was making me look lazy and unhelpful. We got home around 8pm so it was gone 9pm by the time I’d finished.

Current Emotion
Unimpressed.

Todays Standard:
I am a woman who:
is going to try to lift her mood today, even if I haven’t got anything to do at work, and plenty of things I could be doing at home.

Todays Sweet Spot:
I think:
I have some SOSI material to catch up on which will speak to a topic really relevant to me right now. I will create interesting things to do.

I feel:
masterful in my own world which doesn’t involve anyone else.

I do:
1) (body) Lunchtime walk. Ringing this evening.
2) (mind) finding things to do and learn.
3) (soul) live my own life.

Future Self Pep Talk:
Unlock growth by approaching life as a learner, not an expert.

Celebrations/Gratitudes:
Got through the weekend playing happy families.