Determined

My 30 Day Goal is:
Enjoy the Christmas period whilst still taking care of exercise and fueling my body well without missing out.

Current Thought:
A very easy day yesterday that ended up in tension at home. Only one 10 minute meeting and a smattering of emails meant I had to find other ways to entertain myself during the day. Was very pleased to see the last 3 workouts of the 12 Days of Christmas Challenge were only 10 or 20 minutes long, meaning I would be able to squeeze at least one in after ringing and before dinner. There were 10 of us for ringing but we stuck to the middle 8. I actually managed to do both 10 minute workouts when I got home whilst C cooked dinner.  Afterwards I did a bit of admin then the shit hit the fan. Part of what was discussed at the meeting on Sunday evening has been automatically published on the social media site. C saw it and somehow thought I knew about it and had sanctioned it. I’d discovered it at the same time as him and established how it had happened. He threw things across the floor and raged about how that’s not what was agreed and he’d resign from all his posts if this carried on. l explained I’d seen it at the same time as him, so had nothing to do with it and he should vent at the people responsible, not me. We sat in silence for a while, then he seemed to calm down watching telly and reading. I, of course, was now feeling edgy.

Current Emotion
Determined.

Todays Standard:
I am a woman who:
will try and find some joy in the day. Absolutely noting to do at work today. Ringing again, then I’ll squeeze in the last of the challenge workouts. I’m hoping C will put the Christmas tree up today, or at least we could do it this evening.

Todays Sweet Spot:
I think:
I will read a lot today and try to find ways to pass the time constructively.

I feel:
Determined not to let C upset me anymore this week. Its almost Christmas for crying out loud, we should be having fun and feeling festive.

I do:
1) (body) lunchtime walk, ringing, last challenge workout.
2) (mind) read. Find ways to keep myself entertained.
3) (soul) breathe deeply. Let things go. Let the people, people.

Future Self Pep Talk:
Recognising emotional immaturity patterns gives you the power to choose responses that fit your current family instead of your past pain.

Celebrations/Gratitudes:
Really pleased to have managed 2 short workouts last night, means I’m on track to complete the challenge before Christmas Day.