Sad

My 30 Day Goal is:
Enjoy the Christmas period whilst still taking care of exercise and fueling my body well without missing out.

Current Thought:
Fun times with little E yesterday. She’s much more confident around me and C and came willingly, and unprompted for hugs. She was less so around R, but she hasn’t seen her for well over a year. She did play and raid R’s bedroom for toys though. She behaved well most of the time. More present swapping and a light lunch. They had to leave mid afternoon and we regained relaxing, reading and napping. Did feel incredibly sluggish though, and achy even though we hadn’t  moved much. Maybe that was the problem. So close to finishing my book. Have plenty of others to start.

Current Emotion
Sad.

Todays Standard:
I am a woman who:
has to take R back today. It’s been lovely having her here, talking about allsorts, remembering things we’d forgotten about from when she was little. We’ll explore her area a bit when we get there. I’ll do a walkout when we get back, and start to return to normality.

Todays Sweet Spot:
I think:
I am really determined to start 2026 in a positive, forward focused way, so when I get to my retirement date, I’m ready to be active, engaged and entertained.

I feel:
A bit sad at having to take R home, but glad she’s had a good time hanging out with us, eating well and laughing.

I do:
1) (body) walking around R’s park. Workout when I get back.
2) (mind) be open to explore R’s home area and her new living arrangements.
3) (soul) set myself up for the last two days of 2025 and ready to flourish in 2026.

Future Self Pep Talk:
Ask yourself whether the feelings pushing you to decide are constructive or destructive.

Celebrations/Gratitudes:
Its been lovely having R home. She’s been present, funny, interesting, chatty, kind, and easy going. I’m hoping we’ll hear and see more of her in 2026, especially when I’m not constrained to one day off a week.