#journalling – Page 105

Progressive

I’m currently feeling:Extraordinary. My thoughts creating this feeling:Yesterday certainly was a day for being on it. My trip to the other hospital site went well. After the meeting I came home rather than back to the office and what a difference that made. After I’d finished work I slid across to our main home computerContinue reading “Progressive”

Focussed

I’m currently feeling:Human. My thoughts creating this feeling:Yesterday I said I wanted to feel some physical connection with C again and how my hormones were making me feel more feminine. I don’t know if that was the catalyst or what C was feeling or thinking but he did get more physical when we went toContinue reading “Focussed”

Desired

I’m currently feeling:Ordinary. My thoughts creating this feeling:I neither feel great nor bad. I feel Ok. Normal. Nothing special. Nothing exciting. And it’s Ok. You don’t have to have high or extreme emotions all the time, that would be exhausting. I expect most of us, most of the time just feel Ok, or fine orContinue reading “Desired”

Astute

I’m currently feeling:Curious. My thoughts creating this feeling:I had a very strange dream last night. I drempt C and I were snuggled up in a big double bed when he whispers he wants a divorce, climbs out of the bed we’re in and into another bed in the same room with a much older woman.Continue reading “Astute”

Purposeful

I’m currently feeling:Lighter. My thoughts creating this feeling:Not on the scales, only lost 1lb this week but lighter in frame of mind. I’ve come to terms with the fact I’m probably now going to have to take tablets for the rest of my life. I’ve now told people I’m intending to stand as Deputy PresidentContinue reading “Purposeful”

Reassured

I’m currently feeling:Unnerved. My thoughts creating this feeling:I went for my cervical smear test yesterday morning. The nurse and I were chatting.as she was setting up, about perimenopause symptoms and such. I mentioned I’d had a blood pressure and cholesterol check done at work before Christmas and had been told my BP was quite highContinue reading “Reassured”

Accomplished

I’m currently feeling:Positive. My thoughts creating this feeling:Got lots to do today and woke up making a mental vote of the absolute must do’s for the day. Have an appointment first thing then various articles and reports to write, meetings to arrange and a Zoom meeting later in the day. Need to get some seriousContinue reading “Accomplished”

Stressfree

I’m currently feeling:Intrigued. My thoughts creating this feeling:The cat is out of the bag now, so no going back. My proposer for the role of Deputy President contacted the current President yesterday and spoke about my nomination. At Last nights Exec meeting are of the topics of discussion was the succession, So I was askedContinue reading “Stressfree”

Emboldened

I’m currently feeling:Frumpy. My thoughts creating this feeling:I think a combination of reasons are causing this. The dress I wore yesterday was probably too much to wear to work. The wrap part across my chest was very low cut and revealed far too much for the office. I ended up wearing my scarf all dayContinue reading “Emboldened”

Delighted

I’m currently feeling:Frustrated. My thoughts creating this feeling:Every single meeting and training session I had booked in yesterday got cancelled. Whilst it was lovely to get the time back so I could finish other things off, it means I’ll have to find time to reschedule most of what should have taken place yesterday. When youContinue reading “Delighted”