#journalling – Page 71

Survived

I’m currently feelingSurvived. My thoughts creating this feeling:Day 1. Even had to sit opposite C’s ex over dinner last night and held my own. C was quiet though. I didn’t get to ring what I wanted to because you have to appeal to the masses. Maybe I’ll press the point today. Fishface was in chargeContinue reading “Survived”

Relieved

I’m currently feelingRelieved. My thoughts creating this feeling:Last nights presentation went well. Only 5 people out of a possible 15 turned up and a couple of those are usually quite critical of anything new, but all of them were thoroughly behind what the concept and applications could be. Today we’re off for a weekend ofContinue reading “Relieved”

Preparing

I’m currently feelingPreparing. My thoughts creating this feeling:Lots to prepare for today. Several work meetings, one of which has pre-reading required. Giving a presentation this evening so need to get the presentation ready to go. Its one I haven’t produced so need to refresh on the content. Then prepare for our weekend away ringing. WellContinue reading “Preparing”

Ashamed

I’m currently feelingAshamed. My thoughts creating this feeling:So, the sex saga continues. Monday night I woke up to C doing some DIY in the middle of the night. Last night we did actually start the process. He’s always good at ensuring I’m satisfied first before he gets involved. The issue is that he no longerContinue reading “Ashamed”

Reckless

I’m currently feelingReckless. My thoughts creating this feeling:Woke up in the night to C doing a spot of DIY laying next to me. This isn’t the first time that’s happened. Its hurtful that he doesn’t want sex with me and do that instead whilst I’m right next to him. He could at least do itContinue reading “Reckless”

Upbeat

I’m currently feelingUpbeat. My thoughts creating this feeling:We lost both the peal and quarter peal yesterday.Thankfully through no fault of mine. Irritating but not wholly unsurprising on both counts. Anyway, today is all about the check in. I have my measurements and photos at the ready and will do it when I get to workContinue reading “Upbeat”

Focused

I’m currently feelingFocused. My thoughts creating this feeling:Lots of ringing stuff today. Service ringing this morning. Peal attempt this afternoon, immediately followed by a quarter peal attempt elsewhere. Then a meeting of the team organising this years CC AGM weekend. My extraordinary goal for the year is…To be financially savvy again. Planning for early retirementContinue reading “Focused”

Competent

I’m currently feelingCompetent. My thoughts creating this feeling:Yesterday, I did everything I set out to do. After haircut, I got straight on o dealing with those 2 outstanding tasks I’d mentioned. The document was uploaded and shared.Tick. The email response was draughted and circulated for comment before I send it off. Tick. I even didContinue reading “Competent”

Motivated

I’m currently feelingMotivated. My thoughts creating this feeling:Quite wide awake this morning. Got 2 specific admin tasks I want to complete and get out of the way today. They’ve been hanging around a while in the “too difficult” pile, but actually they’re not. One is almost complete and just needs circulating for others to doContinue reading “Motivated”

Angry

I’m currently feelingAngry. My thoughts creating this feeling:For some reason I’ve woken up angry. Angry at people and events from a few years back and angry at people and events in the last 24hrs. No idea why these people and events have bubbled up but conscious of feeling like shutting people out who have noContinue reading “Angry”