Connected

I’m currently feeling:
Surprised.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
At myself. We went straight from work to ringing a quarter peal in memory of a friend of most of the band. The band included C’s exwife and her current husband (#3). I didn’t bat an eyelid, look at her, talk to her acknowledge her. Neither did C. We rang, then went home. When I got have I blasted through about 30 emails, moving ares that had been dealt with, responding to other quick ones, and investigating, forwarding and responding to all the outstanding filming requests. This spanned dinner and I was motivated to crack on with it. I was quite pleased by my level of activity. It helps when I can get access to the main PC where all the emails are.

My desired feeling:
Connected.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
It’s C’s bwthday today and the original plan was for me to take the day off work and take him out somewhere the out for dinner however, we are now going to the funeral of the person we rang for last night. It’s quite a distance away and will take all day. We’ve arranged to meet C’s eldest daughter somewhere en route before the funeral; they are attending as well. So is the exwife! I’m sure she’ll find a way in to comment about his birthday. Anyway, we are spending the day together one way or another. No idea what time we’ll get home so haven’t booked anywhere for dinner. If it comes to it I’ll treat him to a motorway service station or a take away when we get back.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Although the funeral instructions said casual attire was ok I am wearing a black woollen, bodycon dress, black tights and black knee high boots. Gold cuff bracelet, long chain gold necklace and diamond hoop earrings. Respectful but elegant and feminine.

I will show up for myself by:
Trying to make the best of the day for C’s birthday despite not doing what might have originally been planned and certain people being around. He doesn’t seem that bothered, so long as he hears from his girls he’ll be happy. I might need to nudge R.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Visiting a different place we’ve not rung at before. We may get the chance to ring. Making the most of being out and about and meeting up with E somewhere before the funeral.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
I have declined an invitation to ring in a peal attempt at the weekend. Ordinarily I would have probably said yes, but a) should have asked me sooner, b) several people will be either ringing there, or are unwell meaning our district meeting will be short of experience so I feel like I need to be supporting that instead.

Today I am:
Relaxed.

Today I am grateful for:
The way I replied to the peal request email in a positive manner, and how I replied to a comment on social media to correct someone’s misrepresentation of facts. Calm, polite and to the point.