Measured

I’m currently feeling:
Accomplished.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Great meeting yesterday morning with James. Easy plans to help his event go well. Reading time during the afternoon, then bashed out emails and completely cleared one email box. Am trying to take notice and put into practice the ideas I’m learning from Atomic Habits by James Clear. Then after dinner had a successful online ringing session with a method I’ve never rung before.

My desired feeling:
Measured.

My thoughts creating this feeling:
Ate far too many sugary things yesterday. Had my normal breakfast and lunch which were fine. We’d shopped at the bread stall on the way home from town to get today’s standard lunch things but also bought nice things for our afternoon tea. I chose a vienesse finger but it’s about 20cm long and very nice. After we’d been home for a while a delivery arrived for C from R as a belated birthday gift. It was a box of 6 massive doughnuts all covered in sweet and sticky toppings. Clearly they’ll need to be eaten swiftly before they go stale and C offered me one. As I selected my head was telling me I didn’t need and shouldn’t have one but my hands had a will of their own. And right as I was reading the chapter about making bad habits unattractive! Anyway, I ate it and as doing so could almost feel the sugar racing through my body. I was trying to convince myself as I was eating it that it would make me ill and I should stop. I need to be more measured about my sugar intake and say so when I mean it.

I want to take a more measured approach to the rest of today. I have scheduled several tasks to complete and trying to make sure I’m realistic about the timescales for completion but also my availability. We have a district meeting this afternoon and I know I’ll need to be supportive even though I’m no longer a district officer, but it seems half of them won’t be there and one may still have Covid. I had been asked to fill in for a drop out in a peal attempt today but declined as I was aware the meeting could be short otherwise.

I’ll show up on purpose in my dress, body language and presentation by:
Jeans and lilac bamboo top today. Comfortable, practical and ringable. Gibraltar bracelet, birthstones necklace and lilac stud earrings. Not particularly feminine, elegant or stylish but suitable for the day ahead.

I will show up for myself by:
Very much reducing the sugary intake. If C offers me another doughnut I’d either decline, take half of one, or only have that and no other sweet treats today.

I will upgrade my surroundings by:
Tidying up my little corner of the lounge. There are piles of books to read and magazines that either need putting away or throwing out. I’m gathering books I’ve read with a pile to take to my sisters next time we visit. Some are returning hers I’ve borrowed and others are ones I think she may enjoy.

I will show up for my extra ordinary goal by:
Making a good habit of keeping on top of tasks that are starting to mount up and ensuring that as new things come in that require action are added the the schedule so I don’t forget about them, and allocate time to them.

Today I am:
Planning.

Today I am grateful for:
Friends. I regularly get a Whats App message on a Friday from a friend and colleague wishing me a happy weekend. Its a very simple thing to do and takes no time at all, but a simple, short message received is often enough for someone to know they are being thought of. I regularly correspond via WhatsApp with one of my sisters and I try to remember when she has appointments, or something nice is happening in her world. I think it’s really nice to recieve a message, just keeping in touch without any drama or agenda.