Tired

My current feeling:
Tired.

My current thoughts are:
Was awake again around 4am this morning, coughing. Managed to nod off for a bit before the alarm at 6am. I’m hoping the cough won’t develop much further and will go away quickly. I definitely don’t want to be ill on Friday. Am aiming to create some epic work today. A couple of tasks to do which require some investigative information gathering. Actually looking forward to having save real work to do for a change and need to get back into efficient and effective mode.

My physical state is:
Stronger.

My physical state is a result of:
My body feels stronger, but my head is starting to get pre-cold foggy. Enjoyed yesterdays Kettlebell workout. Managed 55secs arm raise hold with 1.5kg weights. Not sure how much longer I’d be able to keep the weights going.

I will make today extraordinary by:
1) Focussing on output.
2) Workout #4 of the week.
3) Trying on outfits for tomorrow.

My desired emotion for today is:
Prepared.

I am a woman who:
Elevated

Today I will let go of:
Distraction.

Today I choose to add:
Determination.

My wins, accomplishments, gratitudes for today:
Worked through a couple of SOSI classes that hit home a bit around building relationships with loved ones, friends and family. I wrote down a couple of things to try going forward. I’m going to try to remember to increase connection to those who matter, or should matter, and stop myself reacting negatively when they say, or do things that would usually wind me up. I can either not respond at all, or flood them with kindness.

The thoughts that support my celebrations:
Relationships are the hardest this for me to manage. I don’t have anyone I’m really close to. Not even C or R. I can’t be my authentic self around C as he doesn’t give anything, there is nothing to grasp onto. I don’t have friends, only acquaintances though work or ringing. There is noone who would come running if I needed them. Noone can change that except me. I need to be a more friendly person and more approachable and likeable. But I want to be the real me at the same time. I want people to be friends with me, like or even love me because they want to, not because they want something from me.

I want to improve the following for tomorrow:
Elevated elegance, wealthy experience, friendship cultivation.

Words of advice, wisdom, encouragement, humour from my future self:
Don’t just say the words, mean them and practice them.